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Friday, April 06, 2007

im back.. haha..

i realised im not tat important.. maybe not just realised. i guess i was wondering if i was important to other people and now i guess i know im not.
im so stupid.
actually tot i had chances. i guess i can never do anything..
if u show me concern it may just be on account tat we r frens and just ordinary frens.
oh forget it..
my crap.. no one cares!
envyENVYenvyENVYenvyENVYenvy.
its a poison.
its injected in ME...
HOPEhappinessLOVEchancesCONCERNeverything tat could make meHAPPY!
is definately not given to me.
not even teeny weeny bit.
maybe i dont deserve it?
i dont belong here.
i just know it.

my life is like a STAGE.
im just an actress. doing nothing exept following the script..
having nothing to succeed or survive.
i will be kicked out soon.
everything i do is being criticised.
if its ..... it will definately be different. feelings for each other will be just the same.
y is life full of critism.

i wanna do so many stuff!
if onli there were no consequences, stress, critism, judging by other people of wad i do or did in life.
it would be just PERFECT.
i noe it would not happen for me.
but for others maybe it will.
i try not to care bout other people and wad they think but its really hard wen u r feeling low.
and have no true frens.
my life is my life. i live it. if yr not happy. fuck off.

being original?
i guess no one is original even if they think they are original.
everything is all in our minds.

its been about 3 weeks.
no signs no responses.
hope u will take the first step for the good or for the bad. i don really care anymore.
two times..
but im not sure if its true.
but i guess im not worth tat much to others.
if life could just end....
its confusing huh.
being on the bright side then going back to darkness.
its always like tat.

im sorry if ure confused.
im confused myself.
dont ask me y.
i don wanna say anything. but im afraid i will just give in again. and have no privacy.
no secrets.
i just wanna bottle evrything up and not let anyone comment on me.

{9:30 AM}

FEMME

name's Sarah.
currently 15.. age does not amount to maturity.
single.
dunman sec =))
be good to me on 12 may =))
plays basketball and the piano.
MUSIC IS MY LIFE.
singing.dancing.
i am friendly. =))
but.. if u do not like me for wadever reasons.
just fuck off and stop reading my blog.
AND..i just love these bitches: Lubna, Julia, Daphne, Elouis,
my class peeps and my whole team
many many more.=))
sorry if yr name is not here, cant think very well now.
remind me alright and i will add it in =))
i want to be happy.
i do not like fighting with my friends.
so my patience has increased TREMENDOUSLY
love y'all =)) take care.

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